Officially 21~♪

2012年8月1日~ 正式21岁了~

*不再是小孩~ 法律上是成人了~*

有人这么跟我说：

“你太成熟了，而且展现了不是一般人的强悍。

现在的你变了，

不再那么容易表露你的情绪，

不管你是喜怒哀乐，都是用笑容来带过。”

*是好事还是坏事呢?*

唔.. 我在别人的眼里是一个极度悲观消极的人~ 

因为一直以来都是那种pattern~ 所以已经被定型了~

*Eechinophyta Besta R2 Version*

提到绮珍，大家的反应就是：

“哦~她很emo的~”

*绮珍=emo; emo=绮珍*

而且整天板着脸~ 七情六欲都写在脸上~

现在比较厉害了~ 没那么容易表露出来~ *可以去演戏了~哈哈~*

怎么说呢?

就是那种低着头哭泣，一转头马上若无其事地说笑的情形~

*好像有精神分裂酱~ XD*

当然~ 在忍受不了的情况下，偶尔还是会失控的~ XD

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说实在，像我这种性格的人.. 很容易就被社会淘汰~

残酷的现实生活中~

什么己所不欲，勿施于人的话.. 似乎只是说说而已~

感情用事、为别人设想好像只是苦了自己..

为了生存，是否自私自利、以自己为中心才是上策?

我搞不懂..

有人跟我说：

“没心没肺，活着不累。”

*唔.. 也许吧? 但是我做不到.. 真的做不到..*

有些时候，也许有人会觉得为什么对方错了，

我即使生气、受伤了..

不反驳，反而默默承受..

甚至会为对方所做的事找理由..

*哈哈~白痴~但那就是我~*

有人这么跟我说：

“你的情绪是跟着你周遭的人而改变。”

哈哈~没错~如果你是我的朋友~

因为你在我的心里占有一席~

所以你的情绪，就是我的情绪~ XD

21岁的我希望自己能冷血一点~ :P

*现在正在努力中~*

如果你觉得我不再像以前一样热血的话~

请谢谢那些伤害我，为我带来心灵上的折磨和压力的人~

是他们让我经历那些低潮的~

哈哈~

我也会学着去笑看人生~

有人说我笑起来其实还能见人~

所以我想要一直笑着~不要再去吓人~

表被我的笑容电到吖~木啊哈哈哈哈~ *自恋ing*

*个人认为相似度高达99.99%的素描~*

“做别人不能做的事，吃别人不能吃的苦，受别人不能受的气，

就能过别人不能过的生活。”

- eechinophyta -

曹操 vs 操曹

不知道你们有没有听过曹操的一句名言：

“宁教我负天下人，不教天下人负我。”

意思好象是宁可我辜负一切人，

也不让任何人辜负我.. 是吧? (.__.")

*拍写吖~ 不是很懂~*

曾经有人怎么对我说：

“你吖~ 你是操曹~ 因为你是‘宁教天下人负我，不教我负天下人。’”

是吗? 我真的是这样的人吗?

我自己也不知道.. *蛮彷徨的~*

有时候.. 我真的希望自己能够冷血..

事情发生的时候.. 不管自己对或错..

坚持自己是对的.. 不管别人的感受.. 在意自己就好..

遗憾的是.. 我做不到.. 我怎么都做不到..

事情发生时，心里的某个角落，

总有那么一个角落.. 让我去试着想想别人的感受..

让自己试着站在对方的立场去看事情~ *当然不是每次成功啦~*

成功的时候，最后难受的.. 是自己~

偶尔我会想：

“其实.. 有没有人站在我的角度想过?"

*这时候老哥的话就会闪过：“你又知道别人想过，可能他们也是这样想呢?”*

也许有人会觉得我小气.. 容易耿耿于怀~

对于不是我朋友的人，是的~ 我容易耿耿于怀~ 

因为你对我来说什么都不是，凭什么讲我~

对于我很重要的人，你们所说的话..

字字句句不是听在耳里，

而是烙在心上..

*好啦~ 是我小心眼~*

也许我来错世界了吧?

幼稚的我无法融入残酷的现实中..

依旧活在自己的框框里~

*不是说己所不欲，勿施于人吗?*

可是.. 我怎么看都好像不是呐~ *郁闷中..*

我想要以曹操为榜样~

结果成了操曹吖~~

*Call me 操曹~~*

唉.. 乱七八糟地写了莫名其妙的blog ("= —— =)

=eechinophyta=

After watching The Change Up

The Change Up is a movie about 2 buddies who envy each other's lives~

Dave Lockwood

 rich, married, successful lawyer who is busy with work~

always wanting to have more than what he already had~

focus all his time on his work~

Mitch Planko

single, playful, quasi-employed man-child lacking of responsibilities~

had a messed up life~

They got drunk after gathering~

Dave wanted to live freely like Mitch;

Mitch wanted to have a wealthy life like Dave~

The next morning~ they woke up to be the different selves~

As the story goes, Dave found out that he is actually missing his old life~

he realized that he had been neglecting his wife and kids~

Mitch found out that he has been hated because of his intolerable characteristics~

his dad and even Dave (his best buddy) couldn't stand his bad habit~

he realized that he has to change~ he wanted to turn over a new leaf~ 

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I felt touch and wanted to cry at the end of the story~

it reminds me of our real lives~

*Quite a nice movie but erm.. not very suitable for under 18.. you know what I mean*

*I was unaware about that element when I download the movie =.="*

Anyway~ is so true~

People always envy what others possess neglecting what they have in hand~

We often think that things others have are better than ours~ *funny huh?*

people never know what they have until they lost it..

people do not learn to treasure things until they are gone..

Same goes to life~ we often envy others~ the way they live~

but.. we are not them~ how do we know what are left unseen?

others may seems to be having a great life to us~

but we don't know what they had been through~

Thus, while we envy them~ they might be envying us too~ right?

There's one nice quote at the end of the movie by Mitch Planko~

"Life doesn't always turn out exactly how you've planned, but sometimes,

just sometimes, it turns out better."

Treasure what you have, love your life~

Cause.. someone else is envying whatever you possess :)

-eechinophyta-

Confusion..

Is about 1 month since my last post~

Was busy with my finals~

Now~ I'm finally free and had officially ended my second year life~

After 1 month without blogging~ my first post for June is about "confusion"~

Just now I watched a video related to confusion by Ribena Berry~ *man~ she's hilarious~*

Life is indeed full with confusion isn't it?

I'm not home yet~ *I don't wanna go home~~~ nah~ i'm just kidding~*

 I had an appointment for body check-up on 27 June 2012~ *which is today~*

my appointment is at 2pm at PPUM~

since I'm currently in subang~ I departed earlier to UM~
Why? To student's clinic to get some medicine for my unknown allergy~ :x

*yeah I know is gross~ TAT and I thought I'm gonna die anytime~ XD*
*sorry if the photos have caused discomfort..*

For 21 years, I've never experience this before~

The doctor said is allergy~ she said it can be anything~

Food? nah~ I eat everything as long as it is food for the past 21 years~ *nothing happens*

Weather? maybe~ you know~ the stupid haze~

Dust? maybe~ I think is quite common if people get rashes if the environment is dirty~

anyway~ they appeared at different parts~ sometimes arms, legs or back~

and the reason for these is still a mystery to me (=.=") *confused~*

Then I headed to PPUM at 12pm~ *walking from 12th college~ exhausted~*

after lunch~ I waited at the department at 12.30pm~

I thought that it is still early from the 2pm appointment~

so I rested a while on the bench till 1.15pm~ *I don't know why I'm so tired~*

then I told the receptionist that I've got an appointment at 2pm~ *it was 1.25pm~*

and guess what~ she asked me to take number~ *totally shocked~*

isn't everyone agree that an appointment means that you do not have to wait?
thus, a short notice on the table stated: “Those with appointments will be served first.”
so how can I not be shocked?
If we were to take numbers~ what's the point of having an appointment? *totally confused~*
anyway~ I still took a number~ I'm 151 and they are handling 124~

*confusion: appointment vs Q*

p.s. I got this number at 1.25pm not 1.48pm~

Finally my turn, I walked to the counter for payment~

then, he gave me another number~

*is this some kind of joke?*

p.s. If not mistaken~ I got this number at about 2pm not 2.14pm~

Some might think that "'well.. is just 22 people ahead, shouldn't be a problem."

And you are totally wrong~ 

the number does not go accordingly~

it can go from 0002 to 0010 to 6003 and so on~ *confusing..*

But what to do? *sigh..* what I can do is just wait~

Guess how long I've waited for a 10 minutes body check up~~

30 minutes? nope~ 1 hour? nope~

Almost 2 hours~ my number was finally being called at 4pm~ *amazing huh?*

Then I got another appointment on 27 February 2013 at 2pm~

Lolz~!! so.. what time should I come? *confused.. oh god...*

-eechinophyta-

×× 伪装●逃避 ××

哈~ Study week就是让我们K书冲刺的时侯~

天天对着notes和slideshow~ 是想把我闷死吖??

结果.. 最近我爱上画小型漫画~~ XD

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("●﹏●) 开不了口 (●﹏●")

××女生の心声××

有人说：“女人心，海底针。”

虽然同是女生~我却非常认同这句话~

因为有时候就连我自己都不知道自己在想什么~ XD

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嘻嘻~我们来大概剖析女生的天性~ *不是全部女生哦哦~*

感性

唔..个人觉得呢~感性嘛~

就是当事情发生时~我们会以感觉去看待~

不像大部分男生这般理性~客观地去处理~

感性的我们少了深度思考和琢磨~容易被心情、感觉和情绪左右~

小结：如果跟女生闹得不愉快~千万不要急着跟她说道理~

先安抚好她~让她感觉好一些后再打算~因为我们是感性的~

爱哭

常言道：“女人是水做的~”

因此泪腺可能也特别发达~

伤心会哭、生气会哭、感动会哭、委屈会哭~总之就是爱哭~

对我们而言哭是一种发泄~哭完后感觉会比较踏实~

小结：如果女生想哭~就让她们痛快地哭一场吧~

强忍泪水并不好受~只会让心情更糟呢~

细心

比起男生~女生的心思比较细腻~会注意生活中的小细节~

我们会记着家人和朋友的生日日期、喜好、说过的话等~

小结：一杯温暖的饮料、一封窝心的信息、一个关怀的拥抱 、一句简单的关心~

女生都会很开心~很多时候~生活中的小细节是关键~

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“女人，你到底在想什么??”

相信这是我们常常想要问的问题~

跟别人发生不愉快的时候~有时候女生会选择沉默~ 

为什么? 唔.. 个人认为是这样：

1. 被伤害到了~不想说话~

2. 怕自己会说出难听的话~

3. 不知道要怎么表达自己~

虽然我们常说：“你不说~人家哪知道吖~”

但是~女生就是不善于表达~不知道该怎么开口~

有些时候~我们会希望对方自己察觉~ *发生的几率极低~*

比如你惹她生气了~她会希望你自己发现~而不是让她告诉你：“你做错了~”

因为女生会觉得她开口的话会伤害到你~

而且哪有人一直指出他人的不对或过失的~好像很计较似的~

女生会口是心非~ *看是什么情况~*

有时候~我们很介意一些事情~但却会嘴硬说：“没关系~”

明明很在乎对方~却为了面子而装作无所谓~

明明知道这样做可能会伤对方的心~告诉自己不能这样~

身与心却不能协调~

比如有些女生总爱说不爱对方（家人、朋友、另一半）~

但是出门逛街时~却：“诶~某某某需要这个叻~可以买给她/他~”

*心里其实一直惦记着对方~*

比起男生~女生似乎显得比较软弱~*不是全部啦~*
当然~也有些女生看起来很坚强似的~就算天塌下来她也面不改色~
她不依靠也不依赖其他人~凡事靠自己~让你以为她真的是个铁人~
或许她经历了某些事情.. 让她不得不伪装自己..
但是请别忘了~她始终是个女生~
她只是在装作坚强.. 伪装自己.. 让它成为保护色..

*装作坚强的模样? XD*

很多时候~女生在意的不是物质的轻重~而是那份心~
*不过当然也是有例外的啦~~*
她在乎的不是有没有拥有什么物质上的享受~
而是她在乎的人有没有那份心意~
比如：在餐厅定位给女生叫她找朋友陪着吃~
不如抽空简单地煮一餐饭在家陪她吃~

女生偶尔会发发牢骚~把遇到不愉快的事情告诉你~
也许你会觉得是一件小事~如果发生在你身上你会不以为然~
但别急着给予评论~其实她们只是想有人聆听~
把闷在心里的事情说出口~不然一直压抑着很难受~

女人也许很难被理解~但不是不能被理解~
如果了解她们~你会发现~她们要的其实很简单~

“You go far in this world, if you know how to touch a girl. -- Jojo”

**老妈~这个是写个朋友的~表误会我~ (.___.")*

- Eechinophyta -